dear diaRY

Rain comes in various sizes.
Some rain is as small as a mist.
It tickles your face with surprises,
And tingles as if you'd been kissed.

Some rain is the size of a sprinkle
And doesn't put out the sun.
You can see the drops sparkle and twinkle,
And a rainbow comes out when it's done.

Some rain is as big as a nickel
And comes with a crash and a hiss.
It comes down too heavy to tickle.
It's more like a splash than a kiss.

When it rains the right size and you're wrapped in
Your rainclothes, it's fun out of doors.
But run home before you get trapped in
The big rain that rattles and roars.

I am living my life behind the shadows at the moment!
Really dunno how to deal with my life anymore...
It has been filled with so much negative emotions this early year that all i can do is accept the fact that this is just not my year!
Slacking, Lazy, Unlucky, shit happen- is this all excuses from me or careless or just plain fate!!

Despite me having all these troubles and negative thoughts, there is one thing I am happy though..
I have my family and frens like Panda, Fish for me oh!!!
It is good enough for me to create a smile whenever I think of them.

no thanks is good enough to show how I feel!!

Life can be so full of unexpected moment!
U never know what is coming your way..
It may be good or it may be bad...
Sometimes what u wish for, u dun get any...
But there is those special times where your ultimate wish is granted to you without you hoping or expecting it.

Life can be awesome, Life can be hell.
But no matter what u can't stop it, u can't predict only to accept it.
As for me, I'll just take whatever it is given to me! But dun expect me to give in without a struggle.

I have my fair share of the good n bad, this wud not put me down but only to make me stronger!!
I cannot guaranteed I'm always prepared for it but I am willing to face it.

Life is just plain sucky at times but now I am feeling the awesome-ness of it slowly!!!

Yea!! Jade is back alive.

I’m calling his phone up
Just to tell him how much
I really love him ‘cause
His everything I want
He listens to me, he cares for me
So I truly believe

God sent me an angel
Up from above
That’s gonna love me for life
Might as well be perfect only because
It’s the only way I can describe, so

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

I’m selfish ‘cause I don’t
Wanna share him with nobody
Not even knows
People that came before me
But see, I never believed

God would send me an angel
Up from above
That’s gonna love me for life
Might as well be perfect only because
It’s the only way I can describe, so

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh

So if you got real love
Lemme see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up
The kind of love that fits quite like a drug
Lemme see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up
If this isn’t love
‘Cause I know I ain’t crazy
I know I ain’t tripping
I know I ain’t slipping
I know that is love
You see me with my hands up
If you think I’m dreaming
I know I ain’t dreaming
‘Cause this is the reason I love him because
If this isn’t love

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby

L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

Love, L-O-V-E
Love, L-O-V-E

I was nurtured I was sheltered
I was curious and young
I was searching for that something
Trying to find it on the run
Oh and just when I stopped looking
I saw just how far I'd come
In this life
In this life

[Chorus]
You give me love
You give me light
Show me everything that's been happening
I've opened up my eyes
Following
Three steps fight an honest fight
Two hearts that can start a fire
One love is all I need
In this life

I have faltered I have stumbled
I have found my feet again
I've been angry I've been shaken
Found a new place to begin
My persistence to make a difference
Has led me safe into your hands
In this life
In this life

[Chorus]

I was put here for a reason
I was born into this world
And I'm living and I'm believing
I was meant to be your girl
In this life

[Chorus]

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?

A lot has happen to me for the past 2 months.....
A lot of Ups n down... Bumpy road everywhere...
But i manage to grip it tight and , n come over it!!!!!
so what is my update of my recent news?

Frankly speakin a dunno... for those that know me, i recently have the same problem which i have before... but now it is solved...

I wished for u all to be here for me!!! Maybe a hug will be nice or just scold me!! cause i really need it!!!!

I also dunno how to explain my everything but i am glad i am still in one piece!!

Well... life still need to go on....
I'll be back soon.. for more...