dear diaRY

Recently come to the abrupt realization that my life isn't going anyway, it is not anything close to what I wanted it to be? How can I let my life rot away like that? Whether it's spurred by a mid-life crisis, a near-death experience, a psychedelic epiphany, or a painful separation, a must is needed to change the direction that my life is heading.
Things I Should Do

1. Try to remember what I've always wanted. What did I dream about being and doing? At many points in my lives, when I encounter obstacles, I tend to settle. What have I settled for? What did I give up on when I settled? Not saying I regret what is did but just re-evaluating me again.
2. Be honest with myself. Pretending that my life is great when it's really not is only going to make things worse. Am I? Sure, I've got plenty to be grateful for, but there's nothing wrong with seeking more growth and fulfillment. Trying not to feel that by wanting more, I’m forsaking what I already have.
3. Write down my goals. Where do I want to be in 5 years? 10 years? What do I want to accomplish before you die? Seriously I really don’t know. I know this is bad but I am trying my best. Oh well, we always need to start somewhere don’t we?
4. Consider making a big change. Switch careers, move to a different area, or end a relationship that's bringing me down. Stop my life from becoming one big routine. Easy said that done. Been there, done that, but somehow going out of that zone is so much more difficult than I thought.
5. Expand my comfort zone. Do something that's completely out of character. Shave my head, wear a miniskirt, try karaoke, do a cartwheel barefoot on the grass, etc. Be spontaneous and daring. Even if it has nothing to do with my goals, stepping out of my comfort zone will help me get used to facing my fears, especially people's reactions when I do something they'd never expect you to do. So maybe I should start doing something crazy now.
6. Remember that it is my life to live. I should choose what is best for me but at the same time I have this invisible burden to live up to people expectation. Not saying it is not good, maybe I am weak or I give up easily, but I just can’t deal with pressure in a good way.

Tips I found

* The key is to stay focused on your dreams, no matter how far you may be from accomplishing them. If you don't remember what you want out of life, it's awfully easy to lose your way.
* Focus on what matters the most to you and pursue it unmistakably to the point of being able to grasp only a moment.
* It is better to have experience than not.
* Don't ever think "It's too late," or "I'm too old." It's never too late, and you can never be too old to find happiness. Read Maria Shriver's book "Just Who Will You Be?"
* Visualize yourself as being the way you want to be. See yourself being congratulated, or hugged for what you have done.
* Visualization is very powerful. If done often, it can work.
* Don't hang out with people that bring you down no matter how close to you they are (family, old friends, etc).
* Be patient. Remember that this develops over time. Fluctuations occur throughout the day.
* Soothe and replenish your spirit.
o Quiet your mind. Sit quietly to free and empty your mind of thought.
o Rest frequently. Find a comfortable spot to unwind, relax or take a nap. (My favorite because I am always doing this.)
o Learn to meditate. ( Perhaps daydreaming is a good start. )
o Free yourself of stress and worries.
* Keep everything simple. Try not to do everything at once. There's no rush to do anything. (Taking note.)
* Experience the current moment. Think only of what is at hand. Think less about the past or future. Today is different from the past. (True, True)
* Try not to prejudge. Be open to experience. Let go of bias and expectation. (Am trying.)
* Be happy. Take time to do the things that make you happy. Satisfy your desires. (Oh no, does that mean I need to have more retail therapy?)
* Have pride. You are who you are. Take pride in your individuality. (I do but….)
* Be content. Find contentment in where you are, who you are and what you are doing. (I do, too much more than needed.)
* Take responsibility. Rectify your errors when possible. Relieve your mind. (I hope I did/)
* Be pleasant. Be kind and courteous. It warms your heart as well. (Am I not?)
* See beauty. See the beauty in everyone and everything. (Erm….)
* Fall in love. Fall in love with everyone you meet. Enjoy the spirit in others. (Okay… People.. I’m coming…)
* Take your time. Take the time to experience and enjoy your journey. (Too much time has been taken.)
* Take it easy. Remind yourself that this is for you and nobody else. (sure)
* Be private. Keep this to yourself. Let no one interfere with your inner needs. (A bit hard for me though since I can’t keep things to myself.)

Starting over again, whether if is a result of a divorce or death, or relationship break up, can be painful to experience. Starting again, has caused many a hardship, anxiety, separation or depression. We all, at one time or another, have had to pick ourselves up and start again; even the cause was injury that resulted in changing sports. Once finally accept these changes as a part of life can we once again move forward.

Steps to Take

1. Accept - the fact that changes have to be made in your life. (I want, I need, I must.)
2. Recognize - what caused the changes. (Many things has happen due to the stupidity, negligence, and ignorance of mine, what done is done, what said is said, Now it needs to be let go and move forward.)
3. Meet - others. (Attending socials and not feeling guilty about it. To get on with my life and be happy again. Do I deserve it? Can I do it?)
4. Forgiveness – (It is an essential of from others and myself. The feeling of guilty about things had happen, and to seek that forgiveness from my loved one is a impossible task for me. I want to own up to what I have done completely but I can’t. Am listening to those who are there to help and trying my best to overcome the barriers to my wellness that I have placed in my way.)

Tips I got

• Never say, "I should have done things differently," or "if only I knew." Blame can be like poison in the body. Accept what has happened and go on with your life because you really cannot change a thing.
• Finding a new job or a new sport can be the start of a new life. You may find that it will be the best thing that has happened to you, something you have always wanted to do, but never had the nerve to change.
• Rearrange the furniture. Sometimes the memories of a room or a house can be hard to shake. Take an afternoon and rearrange the furniture, pictures, etc. It will start feeling new and fresh and the memories of your new place will be all yours.
• Spend time with people that make you feel good and make you feel positive. You may find that old friends are bringing you down. Change the patterns and surround yourself with people who make you feel better or encourage your self improvement. Sometimes the best way to start over is to cut out the negatives.

START OVER


If you've started out in pursuit of your goal
And you've really tried with your heart and your soul,
but somehow things got out of control ---
START OVER.

When you've tried your best to do what you should
And you thought this time that you surely would,
But once again, you didn't do good ---
START OVER.

When you've worked so hard to follow a dieter's way
And you fought to win a victory each day
But one more time you went astray ---
START OVER.

When you've tried so hard to yourself to be true
And do the things that you know you should do
But once again you failed to come through ---
START OVER.

When the road to success seemed much too long
And each temptation was oh so strong
And once again you gave in to wrong ---
START OVER.

When you've told your friends what you planned to do
And trusted them to help you through
But soon discovered it's up to you ---
START OVER.

When you know you must be physically fit,
But your hope seems gone and you're stuck in a pit
That's not the time for you to quit ---
START OVER.

When the week seems long and successes few
And at weigh-in time you're feeling blue
Remember tomorrow is just for you ---
START OVER.

To start again means a victory's been won
And starting over again means a race well run
And starting over again proves it can be done
So don't just sit there ---
START OVER.

Depression is a "whole-body" illness, involving your body, mood, and thoughts. It affects the way you eat and sleep, the way you feel about yourself, and the way you think about things. A depressive disorder is not the same as a passing blue mood. It is not a sign of personal weakness or a condition that can be willed or wished away. People with a depressive illness cannot merely "pull themselves together" and get better. Without treatment, symptoms can last for weeks, months, or years. Appropriate treatment, however, can help most people who suffer from depression.

The symptoms of depression may vary from person to person, and also depend on the severity of the depression. Depression causes changes in thinking, feeling, behavior, and physical well-being.

Changes in Thinking - You may experience problems with concentration and decision making. Some people report difficulty with short term memory, forgetting things all the time. Negative thoughts and thinking are characteristic of depression. Pessimism, poor self-esteem, excessive guilt, and self-criticism are all common. Some people have self-destructive thoughts during a more serious depression.

Changes in Feelings - You may feel sad for no reason at all. Some people report that they no longer enjoy activities that they once found pleasurable. You might lack motivation, and become more apathetic. You might feel "slowed down" and tired all the time. Sometimes irritability is a problem, and you may have more difficulty controlling your temper. In the extreme, depression is characterized by feelings of helplessness and hopelessness.

Changes in Behavior - Changes in behavior during depression are reflective of the negative emotions being experienced. You might act more apathetic, because that's how you feel. Some people do not feel comfortable with other people, so social withdrawal is common. You may experience a dramatic change in appetite, either eating more or less. Because of the chronic sadness, excessive crying is common. Some people complain about everything, and act out their anger with temper outbursts. Sexual desire may disappear, resulting in lack of sexual activity. In the extreme, people may neglect their personal appearance, even neglecting basic hygiene. Needless to say, someone who is this depressed does not do very much, so work productivity and household responsibilities suffer. Some people even have trouble getting out of bed.

Changes in Physical Well-being - We already talked about the negative emotional feelings experienced during depression, but these are coupled with negative physical emotions as well. Chronic fatigue, despite spending more time sleeping, is common. Some people can't sleep, or don't sleep soundly. These individuals lay awake for hours, or awaken many times during the night, and stare at the ceiling. Others sleep many hours, even most of the day, although they still feel tired. Many people lose their appetite, feel slowed down by depression, and complain of many aches and pains. Others are restless, and can't sit still.

Now imagine these symptoms lasting for weeks or even months. Imagine feeling this way almost all of the time. Depression is present if you experience many of these symptoms for at least several weeks. Of course, it's not a good idea to diagnose yourself. If you think that you might be depressed, see a psychologist as soon as possible.
A psychologist can assess whether you are depressed, or just under a lot of stress and feeling sad. Remember, depression is treatable. Instead of worrying about whether you are depressed, do something about it. Even if you don't feel like it right now.

So tell me what can i do........

Depression is depression is when you can't sleep and you get so bored looking at your roof, that you spend weeks nights contemplating what to do with it only to find that you wouldn't have enough determination to do it. depression isn't always suicide. depression is ovbious to only yourself. suicide is ovbious to everyone. depression is, and always will be, my, and many others, mays of life. depression runs my life. makes me do things i shouldn't do. depression is that voice in the back of your head telling you, that you need help. depression makes you gain weight, loose weight, not eat, eat too much.. do drugs. give or take a few. depression has the feeling of death, without the dying part. depression is still killing you even if you have the best things in the world. depression isn't just having too little, it's having too much as well. depression is never seeing your father happy. depression is loosing your brother too his girlfriend. depression is the killing of the broken pieces of your heart. depression is slow motion and fast motion at the same time. depression is the illusion that the world has turned it's back on you and everyone in it. depression is seeing happiness everywhere you go. depression is hoping to survive and hoping not to at the same time. depression isn't contemplating suicide, but wishing you were already there. depression is when the only thing that cares is the depression itself. depression is when you are at school and you can't remember things you learnt in grade 5. depression is falling alseep in your favourite subject. depression is hating yourself because your parents hate you. depression is the hatred of your family. depression eats your insides witha smile on it's face. depression is the look in your eyes when you wake up in the morning, knowing you have to live another day. depression is yourself. you are depression. depression makes you who you are and who you'll always never want to be. depression makes you miss your old self, but once your better, you miss depression. but for me, mostly, depression is all of these, plus, depression is when you have had it so long that you are scared of who you will be when and if you get better. you wonder if you could survive happy and if the happiness would eat you. now ask yourself.. do you have depression? Not Written By Myself but i am feeling right now

Sometimes I wonder,
What do you see when you look in the mirror every morning?

I see a girl, chubby rounded face with chubby rounded body, messy hair, sleepy face looking right back at me..

Apart from that, is that all i see?
People always said 'Never jugde the book by its cover'.. is that true?

Is appearance that important in our daily life?
No doubt it is but is it the most important one?

What about her personality?
What about her character?
Is she a nice person?
Is she a good friend?
Is she the perfect girlfriend?
Is she a bitch?

Endless question awaits ahead..

How much does the girl in the mirror know about herself?
I don't know..

Is she real or is she fake?
Is she doing the right thing?

I don't even know if i like what I see in the mirror, the girl standing there with the questioning eyes...

Despair is not weak;
It is strong.
It fights against our hope.
It fights against our determination.
It fights even against our heart's conviction-light.

~

Despair is drowning me,
My life boat
And my joy divine.
I must destroy the despair-night
To shine in Eternity's sunshine.

~

Do not learn to love despair.
If you do that,
Never will you be able to repair
The painful damage
To your poor life.

Rain comes in various sizes.
Some rain is as small as a mist.
It tickles your face with surprises,
And tingles as if you'd been kissed.

Some rain is the size of a sprinkle
And doesn't put out the sun.
You can see the drops sparkle and twinkle,
And a rainbow comes out when it's done.

Some rain is as big as a nickel
And comes with a crash and a hiss.
It comes down too heavy to tickle.
It's more like a splash than a kiss.

When it rains the right size and you're wrapped in
Your rainclothes, it's fun out of doors.
But run home before you get trapped in
The big rain that rattles and roars.

I am living my life behind the shadows at the moment!
Really dunno how to deal with my life anymore...
It has been filled with so much negative emotions this early year that all i can do is accept the fact that this is just not my year!
Slacking, Lazy, Unlucky, shit happen- is this all excuses from me or careless or just plain fate!!

Despite me having all these troubles and negative thoughts, there is one thing I am happy though..
I have my family and frens like Panda, Fish for me oh!!!
It is good enough for me to create a smile whenever I think of them.

no thanks is good enough to show how I feel!!

I really appreciate you,
Your helpful, giving ways,
And how your generous heart
Your unselfishness displays.I thank you for your kindness,
I will not soon forget;
Both of you are one of the nicest people
I have ever met.

Love the both of you!!!

Life can be so full of unexpected moment!
U never know what is coming your way..
It may be good or it may be bad...
Sometimes what u wish for, u dun get any...
But there is those special times where your ultimate wish is granted to you without you hoping or expecting it.

Life can be awesome, Life can be hell.
But no matter what u can't stop it, u can't predict only to accept it.
As for me, I'll just take whatever it is given to me! But dun expect me to give in without a struggle.

I have my fair share of the good n bad, this wud not put me down but only to make me stronger!!
I cannot guaranteed I'm always prepared for it but I am willing to face it.

Life is just plain sucky at times but now I am feeling the awesome-ness of it slowly!!!

Yea!! Jade is back alive.

I’m calling his phone up
Just to tell him how much
I really love him ‘cause
His everything I want
He listens to me, he cares for me
So I truly believe

God sent me an angel
Up from above
That’s gonna love me for life
Might as well be perfect only because
It’s the only way I can describe, so

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

I’m selfish ‘cause I don’t
Wanna share him with nobody
Not even knows
People that came before me
But see, I never believed

God would send me an angel
Up from above
That’s gonna love me for life
Might as well be perfect only because
It’s the only way I can describe, so

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby
If this isn’t love

L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh

So if you got real love
Lemme see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up
The kind of love that fits quite like a drug
Lemme see you put your hands up
See you put your hands up
If this isn’t love
‘Cause I know I ain’t crazy
I know I ain’t tripping
I know I ain’t slipping
I know that is love
You see me with my hands up
If you think I’m dreaming
I know I ain’t dreaming
‘Cause this is the reason I love him because
If this isn’t love

It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I could be dreaming or just plain crazy
It this isn’t love, tell me what it is
‘Cause I never felt like this baby

L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love
L-O-V-E, what is in me
L-O-V-E, oh if this isn’t love

Love, L-O-V-E
Love, L-O-V-E

I was nurtured I was sheltered
I was curious and young
I was searching for that something
Trying to find it on the run
Oh and just when I stopped looking
I saw just how far I'd come
In this life
In this life

[Chorus]
You give me love
You give me light
Show me everything that's been happening
I've opened up my eyes
Following
Three steps fight an honest fight
Two hearts that can start a fire
One love is all I need
In this life

I have faltered I have stumbled
I have found my feet again
I've been angry I've been shaken
Found a new place to begin
My persistence to make a difference
Has led me safe into your hands
In this life
In this life

[Chorus]

I was put here for a reason
I was born into this world
And I'm living and I'm believing
I was meant to be your girl
In this life

[Chorus]

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?

A lot has happen to me for the past 2 months.....
A lot of Ups n down... Bumpy road everywhere...
But i manage to grip it tight and , n come over it!!!!!
so what is my update of my recent news?

Frankly speakin a dunno... for those that know me, i recently have the same problem which i have before... but now it is solved...

I wished for u all to be here for me!!! Maybe a hug will be nice or just scold me!! cause i really need it!!!!

I also dunno how to explain my everything but i am glad i am still in one piece!!

Well... life still need to go on....
I'll be back soon.. for more...

It's hard for me - To think
Hard for me - To eat
Losing sleep cause you're gone
& I can't do it alone
Since you can't be found
Hasn't hanging around
And I can't take it
I just can't do it alone

I've never thought to take it this far
Tell me how am I supposed to make it
Being here all by myself, just me
You're killing meeee

Ooh you broke my heart and left it wide open... dammmn
How can you be apart from mee
That's like trying to breathe with one lung
Or trying to live with no water
Just like a daughter with no father
That aint the way it's supposed to be
How can you be apart from meeee, me, yeah x2

I can't hardly
Stand aside I was feeling weak
Cause you're gone
Why you wanna do this alone
You say you had enough
How you're gonna give up
Girl I'm missing the love
And I can't fake it yeah
And I don't wanna do this alone, no

I never thought I could take it this far
Tell me how am I supposed to make it
being here all by myself, just me
You know you're killing meeee

Ooh you broke my heart and left it wide open... dammmn
How can you be apart from mee
That's like trying to breathe with one lung
Or trying to live with no water
Just like a daughter with no father
That aint the way it's supposed to be
How can you be apart from mee

Almost like the coldest only night
Without the stars up in the skies
I never saw this coming never
you know you're killing me

Ooh you broke my heart and left it wide open... dammmn
How can you be apart from mee
That's like trying to breathe with one lung
Or trying to live without no water
Just like a daughter with no father
That aint the way it's supposed to be
How can you be apart from me
How can you be apart from me
How can you be apart from mee
How can you be apart from mee, mee, yeah

If you are feeling suicidal now, please stop long enough to read this. It will only take about five minutes. I do not want to talk you out of your bad feelings. I am not a therapist or other mental health professional - only someone who knows what it is like to be in pain.

I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, you’re reading it, and that is good. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. But since that is not possible, we will have to make do with this.

I have known a lot of people who have wanted to kill themselves, so I have some small idea of what you might be feeling. I know that you might not be up to reading a long book, so I am going to keep this short. While we are together here for the next five minutes, I have five simple, practical things I would like to share with you. I won’t argue with you about whether you should kill yourself. But I assume that if you are thinking about it, you feel pretty bad.

Well, you’re still reading, and that’s very good. I’d like to ask you to stay with me for the rest of this page. I hope it means that you’re at least a tiny bit unsure, somewhere deep inside, about whether or not you really will end your life. Often people feel that, even in the deepest darkness of despair. Being unsure about dying is okay and normal. The fact that you are still alive at this minute means you are still a little bit unsure. It means that even while you want to die, at the same time some part of you still wants to live. So let’s hang on to that, and keep going for a few more minutes.

Start by considering this statement:

“Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.”

That’s all it’s about. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die - it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights... no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

Don’t accept it if someone tells you, “that’s not enough to be suicidal about.” There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain.

When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. It is simply an imbalance of pain versus coping resources.

You can survive suicidal feelings if you do either of two things: (1) find a way to reduce your pain, or (2) find a way to increase your coping resources. Both are possible.

Now I want to tell you five things to think about.

1	You need to hear that people do get through this -- even people who feel as badly as you are feeling now. Statistically, there is a very good chance that you are going to live. I hope that this information gives you some sense of hope.
2	Give yourself some distance. Say to yourself, “I will wait 24 hours before I do anything.” Or a week. Remember that feelings and actions are two different things - just because you feel like killing yourself, doesn’t mean that you have to actually do it right this minute. Put some distance between your suicidal feelings and suicidal action. Even if it’s just 24 hours. You have already done it for 5 minutes, just by reading this page. You can do it for another 5 minutes by continuing to read this page. Keep going, and realize that while you still feel suicidal, you are not, at this moment, acting on it. That is very encouraging to me, and I hope it is to you.
3	People often turn to suicide because they are seeking relief from pain. Remember that relief is a feeling. And you have to be alive to feel it. You will not feel the relief you so desperately seek, if you are dead.
4	Some people will react badly to your suicidal feelings, either because they are frightened, or angry; they may actually increase your pain instead of helping you, despite their intentions, by saying or doing thoughtless things. You have to understand that their bad reactions are about their fears, not about you. But there are people out there who can be with you in this horrible time, and will not judge you, or argue with you, or send you to a hospital, or try to talk you out of how badly you feel. They will simply care for you. Find one of them. Now. Use your 24 hours, or your week, and tell someone what’s going on with you. It is okay to ask for help. Try: Send an anonymous e-mail to The Samaritans Call 1-800-SUICIDE in the U.S. Teenagers, call Covenant House NineLine, 1-800-999-9999 Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line Call a psychotherapist Carefully choose a friend or a minister or rabbi, someone who is likely to listen But don’t give yourself the additional burden of trying to deal with this alone. Just talking about how you got to where you are, releases an awful lot of the pressure, and it might be just the additional coping resource you need to regain your balance.
5	Suicidal feelings are, in and of themselves, traumatic. After they subside, you need to continue caring for yourself. Therapy is a really good idea. So are the various self-help groups available both in your community and on the Internet.

Well, it’s been a few minutes and you’re still with me. I’m really glad.

Since you have made it this far, you deserve a reward. I think you should reward yourself by giving yourself a gift. The gift you will give yourself is a coping resource. Remember, back up near the top of the page, I said that the idea is to make sure you have more coping resources than you have pain. So let’s give you another coping resource, or two, or ten...! until they outnumber your sources of pain.

Now, while this page may have given you some small relief, the best coping resource we can give you is another human being to talk with. If you find someone who wants to listen, and tell them how you are feeling and how you got to this point, you will have increased your coping resources by one. Hopefully the first person you choose won’t be the last. There are a lot of people out there who really want to hear from you. It’s time to start looking around for one of them.

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

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German Sherperd puppy

ther names	Alsatian Berger Allemand Deutscher Schäferhund GSD Schäferhund Police Dog
Country of origin	Germany
Traits Weight Male 30–40 kilograms (66–88 lb) Female 22–32 kilograms (49–71 lb) Height Male 60–65 centimetres (24–26 in) Female 55–60 centimetres (22–24 in) Coat Color Most commonly black and tan Litter size 5-10 Life span 7 - 10 years

Belgian Sherperd

Other names	Belgian Sheepdog, Chien de Berger Belge
Country of origin	Belgium
Traits Weight Male 29–34 kg (65–75 lb) Female 25–32 kg (55–70 lb) Height Male 61–66 cm (24–26 in) Female 53–63 cm (21–25 in) Coat Four different types Litter size 6-10 pups Life span 12–14 years

^{Recently i got myself a Shepherd pup, whether it is a German Shepherd or Belgian Shepherd, I really don't know.
so JUDGE it yourself.}

This is Samantha.

That is why a Piggy, Panda and Fish are friends too!!

Fish

Panda

Piggy

There are times where we all feel just to be lazy and doing nothing for the whole day...or just wanna laze around and sleep..but sometimes it proves so relaxing and refreshing while at other times it just irritates the other person..lol..

Have u ever been lazy for the whole day and what was ur experience..what do u prefer to do if u plan to be lazy.. After a long hols, I'm still in the lazy mode, haven switch back to the study mode even though today is the starting of new week.

After a long free week, am back from my china trip..
Feel so lazy so i've been hibernating back at home with my family...

But now its time to start everything all over again but fresh this time...
wish me luck!!

chat next time.. i am sick again.. damn..